Older Nico with baby Nico’s personality/temperament uwu
So I’m about to lose everything! I had a massive, world-ending panic attack all through this morning that culminated in my not going to work (this is only my second day lmfao bye job), and I have to have $403 in order to pay my rent for next month. I can’t work because I am a useless lump of social phobia and anxiety disorders, my mother is going to scream herself hoarse at me when she finds out I didn’t go to work today (she’s probably going to come skulking around my house trying to spot signs of life since she knows I had a panic attack), and basically I am 200% fucked. Goodbye apartment, goodbye pets, goodbye life because man there is no way I am going to get through this shit again no way. And the worst damn part is that I have a job! I work at a school! Come September I’m going to be fucking loaded but that doesn’t help because I haven’t got anything NOW and it’s summer holidays so obviously I’m not getting paid and I didn’t get enough hours in this year to qualify for EI so I have zero income and uuuuuuuuugggggghhhhhhh. Why am I so dumb why am I so useless why can I not even handle a summer job that requires nothing more strenuous than washing dishes why is going to work such a terrifying prospect to me why do anxiety disorders exist
This is so dumb this is all so dumb humans are a wreck
I would give up my legs and eyes and sacrifice my soul to Satan to be psychiatrically stable.
here’s an idea: people shouldn’t actually have to have a job to be allowed to remain alive